Keeping Silent

I've got no one to go to already :( So its back to depending on myself again. But I know I can do it! Its not a choice, its a must! Friday was stay-home day. Cell in the night and yeah, awkwardness. But oh well, day continues uh. Bus-ed alone to Yishun. On the way, I dont know why, I couldnt stop the tears from rolling down. Somehow I know I needed to be alone, but I was really afraid. There was nothing I could do, so I just stayed silent. Studied with Honey till close to 4am. Heh. Guess what, I wasnt in the mood to do so as well. I did Heymath any old how and failed/just passed all my tests. I didnt bother much already. I woke up on Saturday morning with extremely bad cough and sore throat. Till I could taste blood when I coughed. Still I told no one about this. I felt extremely weak, totally no strength at all. My body was aching all over, I could do nothing. So I watched drama the whole day. Ballet was canceled due to last minute changes and I was kinda sad in fact. I needed to dance so badly, so that everything would go away. Mum didnt understand. She just blamed me for not finishing my medicine and all she did was, nag and nag and nag. It didnt help at all. I totally had no appetite for dinner, wasted half a plate of horfun. While walking back home, I dragged my feet. My body felt so heavy, I could feel heat given off. But still, I kept quiet. I know even if I said something, no one would bother, so why waste time and saliva eh... As for today, Father's Day. Not a very happy day. Oh well, I've mentioned it all in Twitter, lazy to say it again to spoil my mood. I'm signing off now! :) Till then.

Lots of love <3