Tell Me Why

I'm back! Again... Have I mentioned I've got lung infection? Anywayz, yes I do. I dont know why either. School's been bad. New timetable can really kill! Plus school's ending really late almost everyday, wait, IN FACT EVERYDAY. I'm so drained already. Its just the second day of school! How am I gonna survive? Agrhhhhh! And I wanna watch Spain vs Portugal later! But I cant, because of school again! Its so damn bloody exciting okay! I'm like so into it now... I cant sleep cause my mind's with it! HAHA! :) They should so have holidays during the World Cup season manzxzxz! Nevermind about this. I guess I have to wait for another 4 more years. Blame it on my luck to be 16 this year... Another thing to add on. Chinese O level oral examination is this Friday! OMG! Getting me all tensed and scared already :( Do your best Shermaine! I need to sleep now.

Lotsoflove <3

Time Is Precious

OMG! See how time flies! School's starting tomorrow, whole new semester :( Feels like its just yesterday when June holidays just started... I bet this semester's gonna be extremely tied up and busy! I'm not ready for it, AT ALL! I wasted my whole June holiday, I mean seriously! I totally didnt study, I didnt even complete my homework. I'm not ready to fight the battle. I know time's running out. Its going at an extremely fast rate as well. Its up to me to catch up now. Really need to mug like siao! :( I need to turn in now anywayz... So goodnight!

Lotsoflove <3

Keeping Silent

I've got no one to go to already :( So its back to depending on myself again. But I know I can do it! Its not a choice, its a must! Friday was stay-home day. Cell in the night and yeah, awkwardness. But oh well, day continues uh. Bus-ed alone to Yishun. On the way, I dont know why, I couldnt stop the tears from rolling down. Somehow I know I needed to be alone, but I was really afraid. There was nothing I could do, so I just stayed silent. Studied with Honey till close to 4am. Heh. Guess what, I wasnt in the mood to do so as well. I did Heymath any old how and failed/just passed all my tests. I didnt bother much already. I woke up on Saturday morning with extremely bad cough and sore throat. Till I could taste blood when I coughed. Still I told no one about this. I felt extremely weak, totally no strength at all. My body was aching all over, I could do nothing. So I watched drama the whole day. Ballet was canceled due to last minute changes and I was kinda sad in fact. I needed to dance so badly, so that everything would go away. Mum didnt understand. She just blamed me for not finishing my medicine and all she did was, nag and nag and nag. It didnt help at all. I totally had no appetite for dinner, wasted half a plate of horfun. While walking back home, I dragged my feet. My body felt so heavy, I could feel heat given off. But still, I kept quiet. I know even if I said something, no one would bother, so why waste time and saliva eh... As for today, Father's Day. Not a very happy day. Oh well, I've mentioned it all in Twitter, lazy to say it again to spoil my mood. I'm signing off now! :) Till then.

Lots of love <3

When You're Uncertain

Hello! :) I'm finally back again! Just got back from church camp, one that I thought I wouldnt attend this year... But I did. Let's say through this camp I did learn something, maybe just not biblical. And for once I went shopping alone, at an unfamiliar place. Another thing which I'd never do my whole entire life, but I did. Actually, it feels great. Maybe because I was at a stranger place, so I need not bother about people staring and all... In fact I quite love it! :) My loot was enough to make me happy! I bought makeup, a bag, clothes and shoes! Hehheh. As for what I've learnt in the camp, I dont really wish to elaborate in detail. Just for me to know, that's all. Its depressing and disappointing. Sigh! Then moving on to Thursday! I met my lovely dance girls to ice-skate! Yes I did have fun. Love them! Its been a long time since I ice-skated, but it was the company that matters. Thanks to them, I didnt think that much about anything else... I'm ending this post already, just a short update on my week! :)

Lots of love <3

Wrong Move, Too Late

Oh, I'm finally back to post again! Almost forgotten about me blog! Heh :) Guess holidays didnt feel any like one! Except for the fact that it is called "June Holiday", other than that, not really. Have been going to school everyday for the past week and even this! I'm glad I'm still surviving! Bu oh well, three more months to O's! Then all my hardship will disappear! Add oil Shermaine!!! Everyone believes in you, so should you! I really hope I can have the confidence and memory man... Life goes on even if I dont feel like! Now everything is about time! Why isnt time unlimited? Then I dont have to worry about anything. Oh well, no point blabbing over this. I did it again, no one knows what, except myself. What a bitch man, seriously. But I have no one to blame, so I have to move on! I've been dreaming too much... Dreaming about things that I know wont happen but yet I do want it to happen. Ah, silly me. Whatever uh. I need to focus well now, O levels most important now!!! So yeah :) Encourage or motivate me if you can!

Lotsoflove <3

No Worries

I'm feeling super happy today! SRP was cancelled and I got my rest for the day. Met up with my girls and thanks to them, I'm in love with today! :) They made me feel so happy today, genuinely! I laughed like mad, and I smiled a lot! All thanks to them! Who knew we could click so well? Talking so much, time seemed to pass so quickly! Love them very muchhhh! :) We shall have more of this sessions okay? Hehe! Thankyou darlings for making my day! I really am happy today. No need to worry or trouble about anything at all, I could really let my hair down. This really feels extremely good! :)

Lotsoflove <3

No Worries

I'm feeling super happy today! SRP was cancelled and I got my rest for the day. Met up with my girls and thanks to them, I'm in love with today! :) They made me feel so happy today, genuinely! I laughed like mad, and I smiled a lot! All thanks to them! Who knew we could click so well? Talking so much, time seemed to pass so quickly! Love them very muchhhh! :) We shall have more of this sessions okay? Hehe! Thankyou darlings for making my day! I really am happy today. No need to worry or trouble about anything at all, I could really let my hair down. This really feels extremely good! :)

Lotsoflove <3

Feels Dead Terrible

O Levels Mother Tongue's over :) I made the stupidest mistake someone could ever make! I wrote the wrong question number for paper one. Wow! Clap hands! I almost freaked out for goodness sake okayyyy! Nervous like crap siah :( Then up till now... I cant stop coughing. The blocked nose is enough to torture me because I can hardly breathe. Then the coughing adds on. Its really coughing with all my might and it hurts damn freaking badly... I cant sleep now. How now brown cow? There's lesson tomorrow morning yknow? Gosh! Why manzxzx? Now I need to sit up straight and not lie down. I feel depressed :( :( :(

Too lazy to continue...
Lotsoflove <3