The Same Feeling Again

So today was just like any typical Saturday alright. Slept till the sun shone brightly, then I got all ready to be out of home. Lunched with Momma and off to ballet! :) Am starting to get used to ballet, and maybe fall in love with it. Who knows uh? Anywayz, this is not the main point of today's postttt! Headed over to church for 10th anni's dance item and skipped dinner unknowingly :( Freezed throughout FFW while taking down notes. To say the truth, I wasnt really paying attention uh. But at the end, I was ministered. Seriously, God was there, He still is now, and I felt it :) Thank goodness for Him! I doubted most of the times, I even questioned where was He when I needed Him the most. But I suppose no matter what, I need to learn to trust in Him, because He'll never leave or forsake me. He loves me dearly, and His love is greater than any other thing! I felt so much better after a cry, even though I told myself I wont cry and I thought I wont! Things happen with God around :) Another point to note, IT FEELS FREAKING TERRIBLE TO BE SICK. I was coughing all day long, non-stop. Felt as though my throat was bleeding and it hurts damn badly!!! Now I have like blocked nose as well, adds on to the torture. What's worse, with fever on top of everything. Thenthenthen, O levels Chinese is on Monday. Tell me how to survive? :(

Ohmy ohmy ohmy, I NEED TO SLEEP ALREADY! I freaking wont get up on time tomorrowz for duty, 745am in church eh!!! OMG, kill me! But its so hard to sleep while coughing! Damn it. Goodnight people!!! :D

Lotsoflove <3

Not Enough Time

Woahwoahwoah!!! I can feel the intensity already! No much time left! :( My veryveryvery first O level paper's on Monday :/ This is so killing me! And its like Mother Tongue. Please tell me how much I suck in Chinese manzxzx!!! I cannot afford not to do well this coming Monday! I'm already so lagging behind everyone else in class lah please. I really really REALLY need to do well for Chinese, once and for all, so that I can focus well on the rest of my subjects! But the fear is overflowing! And there're like a thousand thoughts in my mind... What if I dont do well for Chinese? What if I fail? What if I never succeed? All these are pulling me down, my morale is going lower and lower each day! I need help, motivation, encouragement, etcetc... BADLY! Guess this means a lot to me! I'm trying my very best to believe I can do it. Today's Vesak Day, and Imma study my brains out for Chinese! Go Shermaine go! You can do it. Add oil add oil, dont give up okay! :)

"Life is a journey filled with many learning processes"
With this, I'm ending my post! :)
Lotsoflove <3

Like No Other

I'm here again! :) Been pretty lazy recently, and its a bad thing. I need to motivate myself and really start mugging hard!!! Midyears is badly done and I need to be ready for practice exams as well as prelims... But of course, I should first clear my Chinese O's this coming Monday. And the worse thing is, I so suck in it. How to get an A? Come to think of it, pretty impossible for me. But I'm gonna dream big! :D HAHA! Been doing a lot of thinking as well. Leaving issues aside for the time being, I thought of my own future. Pretty much scares me eh. I have no confidence, at all, to do well for O's. I have a lot more to do, and I'm starting to feel fearful already. Been wasting time as well. Why arent I in the exam mood yet anywayz? :( Then I also thought about what I wanna do, I'm still at a loss though. I really need to wake up!!! I'm afraid that I wouldnt be able to meet my own expectations or what I wanna do, then I'll really not know what to do already. Guess life's getting tougher and tougher each day, but oh well, life's like that isnt it? And it still goes on...

Done with this! :)
Lotsoflove! <3

Once More

Well, I never expected myself to be back to blogging. But here I am now, with an all new blog. I dont know what made me feel like blogging again, just I had the urge to suddenly. Things happen unexpectedly at times. I guess this space here is gonna be for me to really just pour out everything, I hope. Whether or not I'm gonna tell people about this, I'll see about it as time goes by. This almost sums up my first post uh... With a little bit of what's happening in my life now.

Things are not exactly going smoothly for me. Midyears werent well done and that sets me thinking about how I'm gonna cope with the second half of the year. Sigh. Meet-the-Parents session is this week as well, I'm hoping it'll go well. Issues about myself surfaced as well. There're just too many thoughts going through my mind now. Its like drowning me, and I'm beginning to find it hard to breathe. But again, I know I have Him, who's with me all the time. And I know I can depend on Him. Thank God for His Son in my life :)

With this, I end my first post!
LoTsoflove <3