I'm back to update, like finally... Its been almost a month since I last did update. So far life isnt going well for me. So much more things to handle and do... I'm going insane. Totally hated it. I'm left with 68days, what am I to do? I dont know. I dont think I'm ready for anything yet. I'm tired, physically, mentally and emotionally... Today Chinese results for O's was released. It wasnt what I expected, but I suppose it tells me my standard. Maybe it is a warning/wakeup call to get me back on my feet. But it isnt exactly working... The tears I couldnt control, just kept rolling down my cheeks. I totally felt demoralised. No confidence, no hope, no mood, no everything. I felt like I was nothing. I knew there wasnt anything I could do to change it. The tears just kept rolling. I thought through. So many thoughts raced through my mind. I doubted, I feared... What to do? Sigh. I felt really afraid and alone. It was almost like the end of everything. Then I began to wonder how would it be like if it was actual O's results. Swear I'll just die man... Thanks to the people around who kept giving support just when I needed it so badly :) Headed over to church for dance. And I knew I'll tear, bingo, I did. Like again, I didnt know why. It felt so natural. But churchies made my day! Love'em so much. Of course in between I did feel, erhem, a lil' bit. But overall, I'm thankful for them... Home felt like it isnt so homely. But doesnt matter. I took the day off. And I'm gonna work hard for the rest of the days left. Go Shermaine... "The moment I give up, is the moment I fail"
Lotsoflove <3
